Im actually not sure of whats happening right now. Im confused. I don't know what to think anymore,cos' i can't think. My mind is blank. It's like somethings just not right.
Ive tried telling myself to not think of things that are not supposed to be thought off,but hey,how the hell am i suppose to not think of it when i kent even get it out of my head?? I know that every problems mesti ader jalan keluarnyer kan? But ive searched, and im still searching for the answers to all my questions. I can't blame GOD fer makin my life this way,cos' i belive that Tuhan tak akan uji kiter lebeh dari aper yg kiter mampu. I kept telling myself that everything that has happened,happens for a reason. And im sticking to that. I have to be strong and go thru this,myself. I don't need anyone to help me. It's not because im tryna act tough but i just don't wanna bother anymore people. I gues ive done enough pain then pleasure to my friends. I fell so bad to those who kept getting verbally abused by me for the past few weeks. I don't know whats happening to me myself. I just feel that i can't keep on verbally abusing them when i myself knows that they are not in the wrong. Guys and ladies,i am so very sorry fer all those unwanted words ive used against you people. I really don't mean it. Sometimes i just hope that i could be more carefull with the words i used,but sometimes those words just came out by themselves. I know its sucha a lame excuse but hey,everyone has their own problem right. But seriously people,to those ive hurt so much,im so sorry. And to that someone,im so very sorry fer using all those unwanted and unintended words towards you. Honey,i don't mean it... But i hope you understand why im like this. Ive never once maki you,and ive never once msged you that way. And i know dat ive hurt you in many ways,by my actions towards you,by the words ive said to you,by those msges ive sent you,i noe ive hurt you. And im trully very sorry! :"( And please stop saying you don't mind me maki-ing you,cos' honey its not fair. But thanks fer bein patient. Im so sorry... Haiz! Life is so unfair,but then again,if its owaes fair,then life will be damn boring aye?? So Dee,stop stressing yourself up!! Stop thinking about the past,and look forward! Let go of the past and im sure you'll find a better future! :) So heads up, and march forward! :))
And to this BITCH up here, don't worry,im sure im gona find my own solutions to my problems. Thanks tho fer bein there wen i need you. :) I appreciate that alot! So yea,i promise you i wont make the wrong decision which can make me regret one day.. Oke ?? Thank you fer the concern! :)
