I don't know why but im feeling rather sad today.. :"( I have this feeling that ive been feeling for a few days now.. Benn wanting to talk to someone about it but i guess everyones busy huh?? So it's ok.. :) I dowanna burden them either so nevermind.. Haiz.. I don't think ive been very happy myself for the past few months.. I mean ive tried and im smiling but like people say,behind those smile lies a thousand sadness.. Hahaha! Ive been keeping myself rather busy so as not to think of whatever that has happened. As much as i love him but i know i do not wana be with him animore. Ive been trying so hard to avoid him and trying alota new things but all thoses memories we've had are just there.. You know.. i mean as in there infront of me.. Im tired of feeling this way,and im sure alota my friends are tired of seeing me this wae.. I am trying,trust me.. But all this needs procces,needs time to ferget all thoses memories ive had with dat guy.. Ive been wanting so bad to leave everything behind and just move forward but maybe im not that strong enaf eyy?? Or mayb ive not tried that hard enaf.. Why the hell am i still thinking of someone like him when theres alota guys who loves me more then i love him.. I dont understd why is love so complicated?? Why is love so hard to let go;once you've fallen soo deep fer that someone?? Why is love so frustrating?? Urrrgghhh!! Ive been thinking.. i thot of staying in JB for awhile,since im not werking,so that mayb i kud release my stress there and mayb i kud calm myself there.. Carik ketenangan gtu.. Cos honestly,staying in Singapore,im still thinking of him,eventho i do not wanna have him in my MIND! Goodness! What happeneing to me?? Ya Allah,berikanlah hambamu ketenangan dan kekuatan untuk menjalani masalah ini... :"( Mayb i should stay in JB for awhile huh?? Haiz..
